Epiphany Visions

ALWAYS Speak the TRUTH as you are ordained to do so by your higher Consciousness. Understand, however, before you do, that ego and spirit or not co-creators, and therefore cannot exist in the same space at the same time. So know the DIFFERENCE between the voices you speak from and the eyes you see from.

Listen to the empathic messages from the Third Eye Seat of The Soul!, which is where the spirit of GOD rests. Do not doubt that voice, that voice of GOD that speaks, Those eyes of Holy Spirit that see with clear untainted vision. When there is No Logic, or thinking involved which involves perception, judgement, and questioning, then this is the pureness of  insight!

In All of this, know that to Hide from anyone is to Hide from your self. To have people lie to you is a reflection/projection of where you have lied to yourself or others. To think that someone has ATTACKED you is where you believe that you Can and Deserve to BE... ATTACKED and Persecuted.

If more of you are noticing, the VEIL of lies is gradually crumbling down, and in some instances violently, and avidly colliding. The effects are in turn manifesting physically both as a consequence of the action and through ones health. The body begins to break down in the most odd places. Tooth aches, fatigue, central nervous conditions, etc. You catch my drift!

There is nothing in ego that can or WILL prevail against Spirit, or GOD! The longevity of deceit is null and void! So for those of us who are hiding in fear, withholding information and thoughts, because we actually BELIEVE that they are PRIVATE, Look before you closely. Look at the people standing closest and farthest  to and way from you and notice the proximity of both. There is no separation of thought, and no secret that can BE... Kept! It ALL shows up!

To avoid a sure way of Chronic Depression, as well other mental disorders/dis-ease, is to Embrace Spirit and what my ego has convinced me that is painful. Accepting things as they are and discovering the truth can feel like it's an overwhelmingly, anxiety driven responsibility. Yet, in the midst of the truth we NEED DO Nothing more than just open our hearts and minds to it, ask to BE... Led and literally change our belief/thinking!

We NEED Do nothing but come from a SURE place of Knowing/Knowledge of our celestial inheritance which affords us entitlement to ALL that is GOOD and ABUNDANT! Tonight I really needed to write and read, HEAR these words. I/My ego has been extremely emotional these past few days, but since I AM ALL about being in the moment, it has felt this way especially today.

I realized in my lesson for today besides what I'm studying spiritually, that I also  CANNOT doubt my Higher Voice and what is being revealed is a profound way for me to LOVE Myself Unconditionally, BE More Patient with myself, and find the compassion, empathy for my own healing which in return reflects back to me in the form of my fellow Human Beings and close encounters.

Until the Next Discovery

Thank You for reading and listening

I Love U!
Omena El

Omena's Top 7 Cancer Preventative Methods

Greetings Light Beings! Today I AM speaking about a topic that has received a lot of spot light and funding throughout the years. There are many theories of how to treat, heal, and improve your overall quality of life with this Dis-ease.  I have mentioned before that disease really starts from the mental level.  

Thus the balance of ones’ emotional state is Key. Stress is the NUMBER 1 factor of the underlying cause of ALL diseases. On top of this, our belief system is crucial to our wellbeing. What do I believe? What AM I harboring? What Do I BELIEVE I deserve?

So as I begin to examine and answer these questions for myself and once again look at the current state of my physical, mental and spiritual health I see clearly what I’ve been pondering too much on. Most of what I believe is not even true especially where fear and doubt are concerned. It all comes from my Perceptions of What I THINK I’m seeing. But in actuality what I’m seeing with the physical eye is a bunch of projected Light Images .

Okay let me stay on topic here. Today I have decided to post my top 7 foods that prevent Cancer and are rich in anti-oxidant properties. With the exception of the Budwig theory all of the things on the list are actual foods to consume.

Here Goes

1.       Kale (Steamed and Lightly seasoned or eaten Raw) or any cruciferous vegetable. They contain very powerful anticancer compounds through glucosinolates, including sulforaphane and indole-3-carbinol.  Additionally, they block the growth of new blood vessels needed for cancer growth.  Kale detoxifies certain cancer causing substances  and prevents precancerous cells from developing into malignant tumors

2.       Turmeric acts as the most powerful anti-inflammatory. It helps stimulate the death of cancer cells and inhibits the growth of new blood vessels needed for cancer growth. Furthermore, it enhances the effectiveness of chemotherapy and reduces tumor growth in the laboratory.

3.       Garlic helps remove toxic substances such as nitrosamines and N-nitroso compounds that are created in over grilled meat and during tobacco consumption. It too like Kale and Turmeric kills cancer cells that are common in the human body.  Garlic regulates blood sugar levels that reduces insulin secretion and IGF (insulin Growth-factor a natural substance produced in the body) and thereby the growth of cancer cells. Overall, it enhances immune function and reduces blood clotting while also lowering blood pressure.

4.       Raw Honey and Cinnamon is my personal pick due to the high antioxidant, anti-microbial, and anti-fungal properties of the combination. Cinnamon also has been linked to steady sugar levels in the body for Diabetes patients. Also called a glucose regulator that evens out sugar spikes. In japan and New Zealand there have been cases reported of patients being cured of skin and bone cancer. The raw honey (Manuka, buckwheat, etc.) is able to regenerate tissues in the body and kills off millions of bad bacteria and viruses. This is due to an enzyme found in honey that creates Hydrogen Peroxide believed to be the activity behind its anti-microbial functions.  Though there hasn’t been any extensive research provided out of these findings, and whether folks believe the combination can cure cancer or not, one thing’s for certain is that it boosts overall immunity and assist in preventing major diseases.  

5.       Foods rich in Lutein, Beta carotene, and Lycopene (e.g. All Yellow, Orange, and red vegetables). These foods stimulates the growth of immune cells and increases their capacity to attack tumor cells through lutein, lycopene, phytoene, and canthaxanthin which are all various anti-oxidants in the body.

6.       Thyme, Rosemary, Basil, oregano, and Mint also kill cancer cells and reduce their spread by blocking the enzymes they need to invade neighboring tissues.  It acts as an anti-inflammatory and antioxidant

7.       Budwig Theory: This theory was developed by a German doctor of pharmacology, chemistry, and physics named Johanna Budwig whose research and finding came under much scrutiny by the European medical, pharmaceutical, and food industries.  Dr. Budwig studied in-depth the effect of hydrogenated and other denatured fats upon human health and found it to be disastrous, while she discovered the truly "essential" and powerfully healing nature of essential fatty acids on all manner of degenerative diseases including cancer.

It would be a lot of information to discuss her research in depth. With that said, I am going to leave a website that will give you way more information about Dr. Budwig and her insights on healing cancer naturally www.budwigcenter.com

Once Again these are my top picks but always research for yourselves.  There’s a host of other foods, and herbs that prevent and fight cancer. For any information on what you read today please feel free to send questions, thoughts, or even research you find to OmenasLoveBliss@gmail.com.

As always I AM thankful for your eyes and ears! Spread the Love as you feel!

I LOVE U!

Omena El, CHC, AADP  

What Is LOVE?

Love IS...The ALL ENCOMPASSING EVERYTHING! It is pure in consciousness, mind, spirit. It is Embracing, accepting, knowing, and willing to see ALL Beings of God's Creation as PERFECT!

It Is living without any inhibitions; That one moment where in an act you lose All egoic notions and material lust. When you just ARE (Love) and Nothing (Fear, the Illusion,) exist. 

Spirit is literally present moving your every thought, and action. Realistically, spirit is ALWAYS with us. There are those times when we are completely taken over by the light of the miracle and operating from God Consciousness. 

So where am I leading to with ALL of this LOVE talk?

Right to Fridays and today's event at Are You Afro and Off Spring hosted by the Lovely Light Beings of Afro Mosaic Soul aka A.M.S ( The AMS, ALL Mastering Students as I refer to them). 

Each one of these beings, are a walking post of Love and Light. Constantly building, inspiring, and informing people in their communities and across the world through music, art, children, and DANCE!  ALL of this while perpetually mastering love as students of the Universe. 

So I will work counterclockwise as I explain to you, the two events that got the OFFICIAL Omena's Love Bliss STAMP of Bliss. Off spring is about a 4 year project that The AMS introduced to parents and friends who love music as  do their offspring and wanted a place to BE...amongst other DIVINE spirits Listening to Good music, networking about our unique gifts and skills, eating GREAT Food, and DANCING!  

Today was the re-luanch  of the event and Omena’s Love Bliss was kindly invited to provide pro-vibrant, wholesome food and snacks. We delivered and did just that as we served wheat and gluten free salmon pasta with mixed green salad, and seasoned popcorn. We also got the children’s stamp of APPROVAL with our fresh fruit salad.

ALL in ALL the reflection of Love, Appreciation, and freedom that filled the room with little light beings immersing themselves in FULL play, arts and craft, and Dancing was an ABSOLUTE DELIGHT to experience.

Moreover, the place in which the event was held was FABULOUS for two DIVINE reasons.  First, it’s a private democratic school entitled FreeBrook Academy, and second it was started by two AMAZING feminine manifestations just reaching the tip of 30…

These Divine Beings have ( in this moment temporarily) forgone a salary to execute a 10 year vision in the making mostly from their personal funding source as well as a few other gracious donors. The school promotes independent and social thinking from grades k-12 and although they don’t have All of the grades they host in the school, they are expanding in this very moment as I type this through the mental projection and Will Power of their right minds in fulfilling their life’s purpose.    

It gets even better, because as I  arrive, I am introduced by one of The AMS to the co-founder of the school and she is a very good associate that shares some special mutual Light compadres. We caught up on about 6 months  of  newness. As I mentioned to her my certification in Nutrition coaching, she showed great interest in incorporating a Health Initiative in the school.  Something I AM extremely passionate about implementing throughout the globe.

However, I AM willing to start locally and gradually elevate my Holistic Horizons. Nevertheless, back to the Little Light Beings and their innocence (A NECESSARY tool in the Atonement);  Witnessing such grander in their free movements, their leaps and bounds from the 5 steps to the ground, and their yelling to the top of their lungs as they stood confidently in their assurance of BEING on top of the WORLD, made me READY to do the same with my Holistic and Spiritual path

Which leads me to the next Colossal event of the MLK weekend, Are You Afro? Now here’s something totally interesting from an egoic point of view. This Friday was not one of their best parties and I AM  not exclusively posting my insights from that night.

However, Are U Afro? with its’ residents DJ’s DJ Sres, and Dave K is by far ( in my egoic opinion) one of THEE MOST Spirit invoking, SOUL Thumping parties in NYC. There is literally a Healing that occurs  on the dance floor with the connection of the being to the sound frequency/vibration of the music, that DJ Sres, and Dave K Ignites. You can see people releasing the stresses of life, the day and worries, fears. In that moment, there is ONLY pure LOVE.

Despite How and what I felt on Friday, this fundamental principle and energy was present for a good moment in the party. I even mentioned it on my flip cam while recording the night.

Although this account is coming from the past on both occasions, I must say that Are You Afro’s creator Gale Gee Murphy, with the TALENT and GIFTED SKILLS of her staff and DJ’s, especially DJ Sres has tapped into a Gold-Mind (and not remotely the one most folks think, but a golden treasure of the power of sound, drum, rhythm, and Love that supersede any material riches). I AM ALWAYS pleased when I go and see the reflections of each being in me. Especially in those moments of spiritual awe!

Then one by one, through my connection both to spirit and to the crew of Are You Afro, stories of people’s reason for coming,  and what the party does for them, Divinely unfolds to me.

I AM humbled and listen Lovingly, freely with a God Conscious ear, returning the Love and acceptance of the being confiding in me. So because of these consistent encounters that happen every time I attend this PARTY, it will ALMOST CERTAINTLY get the Omena’s Love Bliss Stamp of Bliss. Moreover I highly recommend that you ALL reading this attend @least one Are You Afro? event and allow your own DANCING Spirit to communicate with the vibrations of the music.

In closing I want to say, that there has never been one documented VIOLENT incident that I can recall since I’ve been frequenting house parties from 1997-until now. Even though, I’d been listening to the music from my wipper snapper years as an eclectic youth in Junior High School. If someone steps on your shoe or pushes you,

YES from an egoic level one may moat, but not to the degree of throwing blows because usually the person who commits the act apologizes if they’re aware.

For the most part there are no Artificial Probes needed to enhance the natural High that the energy of this music exudes in ALL of the dancers and DJ’s that come to give and receive the one thing they share in common LOVE for the music!

In Divne Love

Thank You for reading and Listening

Omena El, CHC

It IS Whatever I Say It IS!

This by far is the shortest blog I've ever posted! The idea here is very simple yet many of us, (I included) manage to complicate simplicity!

According to the Law of Mentalism from the book The Kybalion, Whatever, the mind thinks, creates, and says, SO BE IT! If I say, "Oh Lord! I can't pay my rent" guess what, the Universe, due to the fact that it too is mental and operates off  an energetic quantum field, will project to me in material form the very thing I AM saying, and vibrating!

If I want to know how my life is unfolding, I have to take time to look at the people, things, experiences, and places standing before me. Even those people or things that seem foreign. If I think that I've gotten control over my mind and thoughts by changing up the behavior (behavior modification), the results will BE... the same.

 I MUST change my mind. The body only does what the mind is thinking! Thus, I Must allow my Beliefs and Thoughts to BE... guided directed by God from a Place of unconditional LOVE! Because in the end IT IS WHAT I SAY IT IS! and there is nothing out there except the projections, thoughts, and beliefs from my mind!

Now which mind will you (I) follow. Your (my) Right Mind or your (my) Wrong Mind? (Your (my) Ego or Your(my) Higher Consciousness)?.  God's Will Not Ego, Thine Mind, not mine! BE... Led by the God Consciousness that Lives within! There is NO SEPARATION! No need to play small and put my (our) power outside of myself into the control of Fear or someone else Illusions/Fear.

Ponder on  this quote taken from Bilal's song 'All Matter' from his latest album Airtight's Revenge; "We're ALL the same, Yet All so very Different. DIVINE by DESIGN, it ALL intertwines. Ain't Nothing New, But it's always changing, moving, Still waters, soft yet soooooooo HARD!"

Until the Next Discovery...
Thanks for Reading and Listening
I Love You
Omena El, CHC

Hello Kale! Recipe Entry 1

Enjoy the first recipe of the blog, my famous Sacred Kale Salad. Those of you who partake in this recipe will not only reap the cancer-fighting, properties of Kale (one of the many benefits of this Glorious Green), but the sensational seasoning used to create this divine therapeutic dish 
                                   

                                     Kale Salad

Prep time 10minutes serves 4-6 people.

Prepare yourself to BE… enticed by the glorious greens and spices that this dish festers up. With all of the anti-oxidant and other nutritious benefits of Kale, it’d be impossible to succumb to sickness. Just follow these simple directions of the recipe and consume at least 2 x a week. Document the changes in your attitude, and physical body.
1. 1 bunch of curly Kale
2. ½ red onion diced
3. 4 cloves of garlic diced
4. 1 tsp of paprika
5. 1 tsp of Italian season
6. ½ tsp of cayenne pepper
7. 1 tbsp raw honey
8.     Half cut orange
9. 3 cap full of  Extra virgin Olive Oil
9. ¼ cup of  Braags Liquid Amino Acid 
In a strainer wash the Kale. Hold the stem with one hand and swipe down on the leaf with the other hand.  As the leaves fall place them in the strainer, wash with a good vegetable wash or some lemon water. 
Next roll the leaves in a horizontal shape and cut with knife. Once all of the kale is cut place it in a big Soup pot. Add in the olive oil, squeeze the half cut orange, the dry seasonings and lastly the braggs. Shake the pot in an upward and downward speedy motion until all of the seasonings are evenly tables and nutritious salad.

Cooking Tip 101

Here's my first cooking tip of the blog post:

When cooking any dish make sure that you cut up all of the ingredients that you need for the dish. Also research and stock up on an arsenal of fresh herbs, and distinctive spices to experiment with flavor.

During the winter, dried herbs are just as beneficial as fresh herbs. Plus they have a longer shelf life and is just as savory. If preparing any type of protein, BE sure to season both sides and for tougher proteins like red meat try using sauces, chicken broths, and warm spices like clove, cinnamon, garlic to tenderize.

For a more defined taste try slicing 4 cloves of garlic in three halves and place them in between the pores of the meat. This is highly recommended for red meats and lambs. Although I AM pescatarian (Eat fresh water fish), I do cook certain red meats for my clients.

It is important to pre-season the glass pan or oven dish with the seasonings, broth, red wine(for red meats) and white wines (for chicken, turkey, and fish). The oven should be set between 300-350 degrees and once the meat is seasoned it should go in the oven after about 5-10 minutes to let the sauce and spices cook a little.

Be sure to cover the pan if you are braising or broiling the meat to maintain moisture. You can take the top off for the last 5 minutes of cooking for a nice brown color. For poultry cook only for 10-15 minutes top and red meat for about 25 minutes if it is a sirloin or leaner cut of red meat.

Enjoy this tip and check in with us at OmenasLoveBliss@gmail.com to share your delicious recipes and to let us know how the tips worked for you.

Thank You for Reading and Remaining Open
I LOVE U!

Constipated Illusions

Okay! This topic is going to get down to the grit of things. It's going to get graphic and I want those of you reading to roll up your sleeves, Open your Spiritual minds and answer the question as honestly as possible.

 As a continuing of yesterdays blog, I wanted to address this IMPORTANT matter. When was the last time you went to the bathroom and had a long healthy bile movement?

I know this is a very personal and perhaps yucky topic for some of you. But as a Holistic Alchemist, and Nutrition Advocate, it is part of my mission and duty to extract vital information like this from my clients.
How else will I know how to provide and assist in your unique healing process?

The winter season is a time where the body is literally slowing down, drying out and compressing. We usually think that the summer time is the only time to stay hydrated, but actually the winter months are crucial for electrolyte and water hydration. Our initial instinct is to go without drinking water because it's cold and we are desperately seeking warmth, comfort, and LOVE!

Plus, who wants to BE...running to the bathroom every 2 minutes? :{ L.O.L! Whatever the reason, and whether we are unconsciously/consciously NOT drinking water, it is imperative to the colons health and to your emotional well being.

Constipation is a sign not only of the excessive dense, dry, NO fiber foods one consumes, but a strong indication of an emotional ailment. That ailment being fear, apprehension, and having a tight hold on the illusion. Lack of letting go promotes stagnation in the cells and circulation of blood flow. It releases toxins that  paralyzes the peristalsis phase in the body of moving the food out.

When ego driven behavior goes unchecked and modified, the belief in the illusion gets stronger. Thus making your material worries, and concerns seem real. For example, I'm late on paying the rent, I need more money, Why isn't he paying me any attention, I'm A MAN! don't try to control me Dammit!, I feel overworked, underpaid, and unappreciated at work, Can't trust people, I feel lonely, So and so hurt my feelings, etc. I mean you get the drift.

Not letting go of those victimization thoughts will keep you STUCK, and Bitter, and unable to have healthy releases. The first part of the body to suffer is the heart and then the colon. Constipated thoughts, invoke constipated movements. When the food is not administered properly out of the body, disease brew. Disease is the onset of  dysfunctional emotional issues. When we store these toxins we are perpetuating gradual destruction of the physical body, and we need our bodies in this moment to fulfill GOD's Perfect Creation and Purpose.

ALL of this (The fall or manifestation into the physical world, us having free will to create) is so that we can heal the separation from source, and awaken from a state of unconsciousness. This means then, that we have to really overstand and comprehend the statement we are Spirits having a human experience! Also, forgiving thy brother and sister( humanity) means really being able to see yourself in the people. places, experiences that stand before you.

In other words, recognize the mirroring process and how WE ARE TRULY ALL ONE MIND. The thing I am frustrated within you about is the very thing that I do or HAVE done either to myself or others in either this lifetime or previous ones. Let GO of thinking that ANYONE can do or has done something to you. As Pure Spirit you cannot EVER BE... Destroyed, Offended, Annoyed, Victimized, or Swindled. ONLY the ego under the illusion of FEAR can experience that.

If we continue to remain in fear about WHAT has happened or MAY happen it will effect every BIOLOGICAL function in our body. And we will BE... drastically FORCED to elevate out of the constipated illusion of this Egoic experience.

Before this happens, PLEASE gradually release old stale thoughts and behavior, and negative judgements about where you are in your process. BE Gentle with yourself, so that you can have ritualistic releases and PERFECT Bile movements. Until the Next Discovery BE... Inspired!

I LOVE YOU
Thanks for remaining open!

Omena El, CHC

Digested Flows Of A Healthy Colon!

One of the most important organs besides the liver in the body, TOPS Up! will have to BE... The Digestive System. This is where health and wellness begin; Where dis-ease begin. Today I AM going to talk a little about the digestion and how it correlates with other organs and metabolic functions in the body.

 For starters I'd like to start with the  mouth where its key role is the flow and proper digestion of food. The mouth contains teeth, and a jawline which helps to chew our food finely and the acid/saliva in the mouth produces an enzyme to break down the food so that it can flow smoothly down the esophagus into the digestive tract/lining.  An enzyme is a substance that speeds up chemical reactions in the body. Sometimes people are deficient in adequate enzyme production, so they have to take digestive supplements to assist in the process.

Most of the time people are eating on a rush, under pressure and anxiety thinking about passing a test, or playing their best basketball game, what to wear, losing weight, getting over a broken heart, meeting a deadline(s). Whatever the reason, we are far to consumed with emotional distresses while eating.   Please remember to breath, control the various thoughts in your mind, and chew, chew, chew, and swallow your food until it is soupy or pasty.  Check in with your body to see how it feels to be present and slow down when enjoying your food.

Although, chewing is directly related to digestion and is a part of the digestive tract, I want to mention how important the respiratory system (which are where the lungs and chest are housed) is to digestion as well. One must breathe in fresh oxygen while eating, and invite in good thoughts about what they’re consuming and how they’re day is unfolding. Please remind yourselves to never eat when feeling bad, stressed out, or angry. The food will become acidic in the body and the liver will respond to it as a toxin.

Moving along, the digestive system is made up of hollow organs that have muscles underneath which contract or help to move liquid and food through the intestines and out of the body as waste.  Food moves from one organ to the next through muscle action called peristalsis which looks like an ocean wave.  In the internal lining of the intestines is good and bad bacteria which are stored beneath the villi in the intestines. The function of the Digestive tract or gut would also take up a lot of time. However, it is important to know a few basic things. First off the digestive tract is comprised of the mouth, esophagus, stomach, liver, gall bladder, pancreas, small and large intestines, and the rectum anus.

We already covered what the mouth does, the esophagus which begins at the opening of the throat inside the mouth is a long tube which passes through the respiratory system and connects to the stomach right at the beginning of the digestive tract. Once the food is chewed and swallowed the juices from the saliva carries the food down the esophagus where the upper and lower muscle layers pinch together (called sphincters) contract and move the food down to the stomach. The stomach then acts as storage or a container where the food and liquid gets mixed together and is then pumped to the intestines. 


The stomach then relaxes and waits for the food to go through a tube into the small intestines. The liver which is the largest organ in the body, (but the brain is the heaviest weighing 3 pounds once it reaches adult size) then absorbs all of the amino acids, glucose, vitamins, anti-oxidants and releases more digestive juices and bile which are stored in the gall bladder.  At mealtime, it is squeezed out of the gallbladder, through the bile ducts, and into the intestine to mix with the fat in food. The bile acids dissolve fat into the watery contents of the intestine, much like detergents that dissolve grease from a frying pan. After fat is dissolved, it is digested by enzymes from the pancreas and the lining of the intestine.

The pancreas is a small organ, approximately six inches long, located in the upper abdomen, and adjacent to the small intestine. It lies toward your back and completes the job of breaking down protein, carbohydrates, and fats using digestive juices of pancreas combined with juices from the intestines. It secretes hormones that affect the level of sugar in the blood as well as neutralize the acids in the stomach. When this hormone (insulin) is not secreted it cannot covert the glucose into energy in your body and fat is then stored in the blood making it thick and difficult to pass through the cells. This what causes High cholesterol/Blood Pressure and Diabetes. There are many other functions to the pancreas but we will keep it as basic as possible.


In closing I mentioned in the winter solstice post a few things to help with a healthy colon. I will reiterate to find a good Pro-biotic to take daily, as well as get colonics up to 6 for the whole year, and participate in a detox/cleanse at some point during the beginning of the year, but definitely every quarter season. Eat foods that are more alkaline and less acidic. Lastly consume foods that are in season and Eat with a conscious heart and mind!


For more information or to inquire about your own Health Analysis contact 
Omena El Certified Health Coach @ 718-840-7348 or OmenaElCHC@gmail.com

Thank You for reading and listening

BE...Well and LOVE Anyway!

Loving, Living, and Laughing Through Lost!

Death, Lost, Passing, Transitioning, All terms used interchangeably to describe a souls return back to the spirit realm. This topic can be perceived in many ways. Most times it’s avoided in family discussions in American households.  I guess I can overstand from that standpoint, How do you bring up something that seems morbid and melancholy? There are so many factors that determine the explanation of death. For starters, Are you an atheist? What are your general spiritual or religious beliefs?  Is your personality more of an introvert or extrovert?  Do you talk openly about issues as they arise or do you retrieve inwardly and remain quiet?
Well in my household growing up, the idea of talking freely about lost, was null and void. We only dealt with it when a loved one passed and we went to the funeral. During those moments I wasn’t too affected because usually it was a distant relative who was older, or a friend of a friend.  I can remember my first personal account with transition of a loved one. I was 25 and it was the middle of summer. July 11th to be exact, I was 29 weeks pregnant, and experiencing many changes. My fashion business was only 3 months new, my guy and I were arguing more over non-sense in hindsight. We were afraid and unsure of how we would raise this new baby on a roller-coaster income, and how we would be able to communicate and interact effectively with one another.

However, in an ironic way we were also excited to be bringing forth life. We had the BEST support of both of our families. Moving along, on the morning of July 11th around 6am I began experiencing cramps or contractions. This was my first pregnancy so I had no idea what to really expect. At the time I knew I wanted to have the baby as natural as possible. So we opted to go to a birthing center. The night before I’d come down to Brooklyn from New Rochelle to stay at my mother’s house. Hiver was at work and we got into a very bad argument the night before. We both just needed a break. It wasn’t until 8 am  the following morning that I really begin to feel the contraction a lot stronger and my mucus plug fell out. I begin to panic and cry, on top of this, I was starting to get extremely nauseated and light headed. I ended up passing out on the floor and tried to crawl to the phone to call 911. A few minutes later my niece came in and she immediately called the ambulance. I remember crying and screaming please save my baby Please save my baby.

What I forgot to mention was that 3 days prior to me giving birth, my amniotic sac was punctured and I was leaking fluid.  So by the time Thursday rolled around, there was not enough fluid and he was susceptible to infection. The 10 minute ride in the ambulance was the longest 10 minutes I’ve ever encountered.  Then, there was more waiting, in some stale, cold room, with a dim light and white coats rushing about. Poking, Prodding, Paging, writing, typing, and God knows what else. I remember my mom talking to the doctor about my insurance. Because of my condition, I had no time to get dressed. So I was brought to the hospital, with some sweat pants an old t-shirt and my hair was all over the place. I was distraught to say the least and in and out of consciousness.

The next room I entered was the delivery room where they were shooting me up with Pitocin, and trying to give me an epidural. But I was resisting with the little energy I had left and my sister who held my hand the whole time, advocated for them to fulfill my wishes and deliver the baby as natural as possible. I recall a different doctor entering the room to check my cervix. She actually used forceps to open me and to try to pull the baby out. I strongly protested for her to cease what she was doing. It was extremely painful. Shortly after that I regurgitated and had a strong urge to push. I kept yelling he’s coming he’s coming. Oh My God it hurts He’s coming.  Please get him out, Ouch, it hurts Please”. Within 5-10 minutes and 12 hours of labor Ayie entered the world a room full of flashing lights, loud voices, cries of worry and joy, and bodies of big people in blue uniforms with masks and rubber gloves. I looked over to my sister, eyes full of tears. Is he Ok Tamera” I yelled! I repeated myself. She answered, “Yes he’s okay, he’s Beautiful!” About 5 hours later I got a call to the room that something was severely wrong with our son. That there was a possibility he wouldn’t live. I began to weep like someone stabbed me in the gut. The thought that entered my mind immediately was, I never got a chance to hold him or actually see him alive. They snatched him and whisked him away.

By the time we were able to see him a different doctor gave us Ayie and gave his standard monotone condolences while shoving paperwork for us to fill out. I was too sad to be livid, to really get a thorough overstanding of what occurred. Sadly, I embraced my first and last hug and kiss from our son, and just folded into Hiver and wept some more.  They kept me for another week in the hospital. Apparently my health was depreciating as well and I really didn’t care in that moment. I didn’t feel like eating food. Why would I? It couldn’t even get down my throat. I could feel the knots my stomach would make every time I tried to swallow a spoonful of food. There were many people who came to visit during that week. I’ll never forget this patient who’d just given birth around the same time I did. She too miscarried her first child a few months prior and was sent in by one of my nurses to give me some support and encouragement.  When I heard her story, I actually got some relief to know that there were other woman who experienced this dreadfulness.

Within 7 days I seemed to be strong enough to discharge from the hospital. I was very thankful to the staff and nurses who took great care of me. Back in the Physical world I immersed back into the daily hustle. Everything sped up 100 times over and I was going to the bank to withdrawal money for the funeral home and to a flower arrangement store to purchase flowers for his home-going service. Although I was not as advanced in the spiritual information that I have access to now, I knew that through my physical pain, his spirit was not gone. That he had returned to the place, the source, of where he emanated.  In following with this theory, I asked that everyone in attendance to his service wear ALL white to represent the purity of his spirit and for the cleansing of the family’s emotions around his transition.

Ayie’s service was beautiful, we had singers, a spiritualist who did a full birth chart and astrological reading, we poured Libations, Hiver and I also just spoke and read from our hearts in that moment. Even with all of this, I still felt empty and I longed for his spirit to return through me back into the world. This longing went on for many years until recently with the passing of Hiver. When Hiver passed away in October of 2010, I did not realize how connected I was to both Ayie and Hiver. Though we never got back together, I realized that in ALL of my other pertinent relationships I subconsciously wanted to get pregnant with another boy. Another Ayie to BE… Exact. I longed for the same Love, and treatment that Hiver so effortlessly gave to me even years after our union.

During this time of healing and purging the loss of Hiver, I was in a mental space of staying present, and really giving thanks for ALL that is and exist beyond this Physical realm. Additionally, I met a dear soul, who introduced me to the teachings of his Master Teacher Carolyn Isis Fuqua and the Circles Of Light Ministries. I attended a spiritual circle after reading her book Keys to the Kingdom, which consists of three books in one. I was intrigued to come full circle to the idea of the 7 Universal Laws (The Kybalion). I’d read up some years prior on the laws but not to the extent as I did when I reread it for a 2nd time.  Going to these circles, speaking with my dear friend, and reading Isis’s books ALL led me back to the awareness of who I AM and how I CREATE as a Spirit in this body. I begin going into a deep state of self -healing. I begin to comprehend not only with my egoic mind, but with a Christ conscious mind. I begin to go into the depths and core of my heart chakra to gradually un-condition 35 years of projection, guilt, and blame. I really overstood what the old adage “You are my Reflection” and “We are ALL mirrors” meant.

 Currently there is more healing every day, and when I feel myself wanting to Judge Harshly, (because I know that I AM not acting in the constructs of spirit but rather a false illusion which is fear) I go back to this awareness “I AM the Image and Likeness of GOD, and therefore nothing associated with spirit or God can BE… faulty, or wrong.” I AM forgiven before any “mistake” happens.  In actuality, NOTHING ever occurs by mistake or chance! NOTHING! GOD has already equipped my physical body with every tool and resource needed to BE…

Every way we are made, is done with specific skill and purpose from a higher realm. We are therefore a result of a higher thought manifestation, which in return we create our physical world based upon our free will of thought. Every material matter in the Universe was created by a thought, and therefore we give meaning to our experiences and to these objects which have no real meaning in the GRAND scheme of things. The same way we created a chair, table, built a tall sky scrapper, established a lucrative business or have chosen to give energy to the limiting beliefs of struggle, pain, hard work, is the same way we can recreate something NEW this time using the lenses of GOD/Higher Consciousness and Holy Spirit. These exist within me and every livening being, within the organic fiber of who I/we are as spirits. Before entering into a human body the spirit has a complete AWARENESS of what the hosts unique biological make-up/stories will BE…

This includes our talents, gifts, personality, and overall well-being.  As I AM in this awareness, I realize that there are no coincidences, NO ONE is out to get me, Attack me or Harm me, I AM not being punished by GOD ( but by my own ego), and EVERYTHING, EVERY person, experience,  encounters have been commissioned by my own thoughts and beliefs in the physical form. To bring this back to my original topic of discussion, although on a human level loosing Ayie, Hiver, and the 4 other miscarriages, were ALL Heart wrenching, on a Spiritual Level, They were Important lessons written in for me to Ascend back to the awareness of my original state of BE…Ing! Transitions, Lost, are ALL reminders 1 that as spirits first, I/ WE CAN NEVER DIE! Death is an illusion, and I/WE must LOVE on, LIVE, on and LAUGH on through the material un-comforts. The goal is not to attach to the illusion. For me (in this moment) in human form as I write this sentence, I see how my ego (OF COURSE) has difficulties with ACCEPTING this truth. Having a lucrative business and a beautiful relationship feels GREAT; So much so I find myself WORKING and DOING more to maintain the “safety” and “longevity” of these things.  This is also true for the struggling artist in me that is always hustling to get a quick buck, or worrying that I won’t make the kind of money I desire.

Even more, this thought has crossed my mind a few times before, Will I be able to pay rent and bills. In reality, these thoughts have no meaning or validity at ALL. Just as ALL material things have been created with a thought, so can I choose to think and believe something different from the core knowing of where I extend from as spirit. NO ONE outside of me has control of my experiences, or miracles in this life. With the exception of THE GRAND ARCHITECT Him/Herself which again is the natural source of  ALL of humanity.
So again, with this AWARENESS, No Hospital, Doctor, Nurse, Stranger, Government Agency, Family Member, Friend, Co-Worker, and Supervisor DID ANYHTHING to me. These people and things are NOT RESPONSIBLE for the passing of dimensions of Ayie or any other spirits that have temporarily come through my womb.

 There is another spiritual dynamic that is partially responsible and that is Karma or the past lives I’ve lived and experienced as well as the story/lesson that my spirit manifested into this physical realm to learn. Like with any game, there are Instructions on how to Play the game effectively and resources available to make the game a bit easier to move through/ play. However, games have an ending, despite how exciting, addictive and luring they are.  The impact is completely dependent upon the awareness, openness, and approach of the player.  Either way we ALL start out with the same instructions, tools, and information anything after that is created by our own perceptions and moves of what we believe these tools, instruction, and information mean.
Ayie’s transition ( as well as the others) years later in this current moment has me delving into another aspect of my spiritual enlightenment. It has me consciously restoring balance of my ego and spirit so that they both may reach the Atonement. This is how I AM able to find grace, and humor in those things that may appear to be a tragedy! I AM able to overstand fully that going into the “Woe is me victimization” is unhealthy and ONLY PROMOTES stagnation. Simply Put, That is not the goal for me LOVE is at the forefront of EVERYTHING I DO!

As I come to a close, I want to stress, that I AM writing Mostly from my human experiences and being channeled by my Higher Consciousness for the rest. In NO PART do I wish to offend anyone, just allow myself to BE… used to service Gods purpose! What is really at the core is an offering of a different perspective of how we view Transition, and Loss on a human level. I have two dear girlfriends who recently lost their mother and the reaction, strength, and spiritual groundedness they displayed, sparked me to write this blog. I AM also grateful to have these Light Beings as Divine reflections in my life. Regardless,  the reader can take what registers in the moment and leave the rest. More Importantly, I AM thanking You ALL for reading, sharing, and Listening.

I LOVE and APPRECIATE every one of you as well as my DIVINE Reflection!
Omena El
Aka
The Holistic Alchemist

I Feel It In My Heart!

There is an awakening occurring in your Heart right now! Deep in the depths of every blood vessel and the four chambers, you are aware that you have everything you need. That you emanate from something  so PHENOMENAL there are no words that can describe it. It's GLORY, and GRANDER is intangible. The totality of what it is, is non-physical. Yet right there in the center of your Heart Chakra, exist the link to ALL that you are!

BE... Okay in this moment of your lesson. BE... okay in this moment of whatever is unfolding in your surroundings. None of it means anything. It is and you ARE... 

Here are a few suggestions on nourishing your Heart Chakra;

First I'd like to share some interesting facts about the heart. The heart pumps on average  between 60-100  times in a minute but  can beat much faster if necessary and about 100,000 times in a day and 30 million times in a year. Without proper nutrition, and positive thoughts the heart gets weaker. Take notice of how your heart is affected by any stressful or angry thoughts that come up in the moment. In the same breath, if trying times do arise ride it out, don’t fight against it because the feeling will only escalate stronger. Deal with it! sit with the uneasiness so that you may avoid behavior modification. In other words, brushing the issue aside, and telling yourself that you’re over it when not. It is very important to be honest and work on telling the truth not only to yourself but to everyone.

Foods that are beneficial for the heart are, any foods rich in Omega 3 fatty acids which lower cholesterol like Salmon, Flax Seeds, Oatmeal, Almonds, Walnuts, Halibut, Tuna, and Krill/Cod Liver Oil, Red wine.  Any dark leafy green (Phytonutrients) like spinach, kale, collards, as well as spirulina, chlorella and any of the blue green algae (which give vitality and oxygen to the blood cells). Asparagus, Broccoli and Acorn Squash are also top choices. Anti-oxidant rich foods like Polyphenols (found in all berries, Blue berries, black berries, strawberries, raspberries etc,) and Carotenoids (Found in colorful fruits and vegetables, sweet potato, oranges, carrots, bell peppers, papaya, mangoes). Carotenoids are rich in Vitamin A a Fat soluble nutrient and also consist of lutein, alpha-carotene, beta-carotene, and lycopene. Minerals like magnesium, calcium and Potassium all help to lower blood pressure and cholesterol. Lastly foods rich in fiber and B complex vitamins all help to lower your LDL (Low Density Levels or bad cholesterol).

Here's an affirmation to quote daily to balance out the Heart Chakra

I AM A WHOLE BEING FULL OF LOVE, LIGHT, AND BEAUTY. I ACCEPT MYSELF AND EVERYONE ELSE IN EVERY MOMENT NO MATTER HOW CHALLENGING. I FORGIVE AND LOVE MYSELF UNCONDITIONALLY.  I AM OPEN AND READY TO RECEIVE ANY AND ALL BLESSINGS FROM THE UNIVERSE. I ALLOW MY HIGHER CONSCIOUSNESS TO LEAD, PROTECT, AND GUIDE ME. ALL IS BALANCED AND DIVINE! I AM LOVE!